Into Myself...

Well...even before i start i just hope this post stays small, funny and quick.....coz not that i was in a mood to write or something..its just that i wasnt in a mood for anything else...so i chose to write...not a very good thing to do...

For the last few days i had been analyzing myself...and after cursing myself and hating the 'me' for always...i realised the 'me' wasnt actually that bad as i thought it to be...i actually surprise myself at times....The way i handle people and their shitt is strangely quite fascinating...i mean i am not supposed to be good at this....i m a freaking single child and being a girl just helps to add on to the spoilt factor......or maybe no...wait...i m not spoilt...i am just too loved....too loved to come across any shitt.....but then...just the way life has it...it changes...its fascinating how i stand against the winds that i once thought would blow me down...i am glad i can stand the unfriendly fire which some people seem to ignite in me....yes..it burns....it bleeds inside...but its beautiful to stand through the pain...the bleeding..the heat...I remember when those moments of humiliation & sarcasm made me think maybe i was not worth it.....maybe my ideas were a bit too weird...and m so pleased that now i understand, that they were not weird , they were just too original for them , too different for them to accept it....

Yes i accept i am not the kind of girl one would dream of , i am obese , i am dark and ugly...i cant do hand stands and i am not one of these hip chicks you would see these days....

And funnily enough i am glad i am not one of them... coz i know i stand out...stand out for who i am....so i am thankful to the ones who laughed and denied me...coz u jus made me stronger...and thankfully there are people who love me just this way...just the ugly-ly beautiful way i am...and of all the people i know...i love them the most............and for the ones who were there...

Coz i know eventually they r the ones who were there, are there...and will stay for ever....