Silly me !!!

Sometimes i wonder do i ever cross your mind ?? It happens with me all the time. Its half past 11 in the night ,i m all alone, i confess m a li'l drunk and i want to be with you now...Its like an invisible hug . Theres no one around , no warmth , no love , i cross my arms around my own chest hugging myself , closing my eyes believing ur there . I dreamt last night . And i so love my dreams where nothing stops me to be urs , not even you . When everyones slept off at home i go to my hidden folders and stare at your that one picture of yours , you look so good , so mine. And then i stare at my mobile screen wishing ....wishing the next call would be yours . So unrealistic , so impractical , my best friend hated me for this , and then the other day i stood in front of my long mirror , and i rebuked myself of the silly thing i was wishing for, for not being able to go along with reality , but that didnt stop that huge red organ beneath the layers of skin on my chest to stop thinking bout u. And then suddenly i felt i saw something behind me. He felt like you . I turned back , i was so happy i almost leaped ahead to hug u when BOOM !!! I banged against a wall ...the wall between u n me ....The wall seperating reality and my tears ...over with my dreams , over with that smile , over with my silliness....back to reality...But i guess it'l take some time... I am gonna be fine..I am gonna be fine..