The Miss List..

Yipeeee.....yuhuuuuu...wohuuuu...ye ye ye...celebration tym...finally my visa has arrived...nd my departure date to the land of the Opera House is finalised and it feels woooow...awesome.. completely out of the world..ecstatic..

Oops ! soory if i got OTT ! !

Yes finally i made it...and m all ready for the new life...and for me it IS a BIG DEAL..it really is..But now when everything is already all done...and i see those maroon and deep maroon bags lying on my floor half-packed..i feel weird...it just makes me realise amongst all those smiles in and around me has a strange ...a strange..dunno wt..

It just reminds me am gonna be far from all of it here...far from all the laziness that i possessed here..all that i ordered for for or rather just wished for and they were right there in front of me in no time...i hardly realised but i lived the best life ever...but now it is gonna be different and m prepared n ready to face it...but before i go...before i leave...there r a few , or rather quite a number of people i would like to thank...and put them in my miss list...just to let them know...they MATTER...

so to start off.....(this list doesnt kum according to the importance levels..i jus wrote the names as they came to my minds..)

1) Maa (my grandmothr) -- thank u maa , i have spent more time with you than i have with my own mother..i addressed U as "maa" first n my mom later..u have held me by hand nd taught me to walk...taught my first A..B..C..D...u have taught me to pray...u have taught me to scribble...U got me my first color-box..my first blue bensia-pencil....my first evrything has bee n with u...even today i realise i am so helpless without u....will miss u maa....

2)Dolon (my mother) --i know u will be reading this..and just in case u dnt know by now let me tell you....i know u rnt as strong as u portray in front of me...and for heavens sake...can u stop playing with those plastic pillows of mine ?? ..........ur a rockstar mom...m so out of words when it comes to u ...shitt... :|

3)Baba (my dad) -- Hey Dad...i jus wanna say m so freakin lucky m ur daughter...u were like my biggest support for everythin dad..remember those morning blues on my maths exam dates...u were like super-man then...i knw i have done evrythin to disapoint u...from havin more than enuf piercings..and not following ur dress-code...and for being so loud..and for bad body language...m sorry dad..i swear m sorry...nd trust me i will mis u...i really will...n dnt worry i wont get into drugs..;)

4)SJC (My School) --U have been my 2nd home for 13 yeras..13 bloody years..long tym eh ....for all these years....every emotion of mine has been linked with u...every thing...my teachers..my juniors...my sisters...everythin....those balconies..those playgrounds...those courts...and the best of part of it was i was a part of every part of it...u have moulded me to wt i stand today...mature n strong...no doubt i have cursed u endlessly bt...then at the end it all comes to two words..."thank u"....thanku so much...

5)Enasree (my best friend) --yo gal....i know we rock...and we know we r one...he he... bt jokes apart..do u even realise gal wts kumin our way...it hasnt yet sunk in ryt ??? obvious....no more crazy frequent fn calls jus to say a hi...n no more sudden msgs lettin each othr know the next big thing happenin in each other's lives..no enu..its not gonna happen any more..we gotta handle our lives on our own...no more crazy hugs...no more of priya-enu shitt...its a kumin to an end puchie...inspite of the fact we know each other more than we know ourselves...we have to deal with it...and yes...no more joy gtalk...coz tym zones wnt b clashin gal...hell..i can write a page on u...bt enasree..."thank u" will b an understatement..bt still...i have no other words for all that u have done to me....nd for that little that i have learnt to face reality the entitre credit goes to u gal...i dunno y...i wanted to write such a lot...bt..u knw...i jus cant get it.... WILL MISS YA... :(

6)My Computer-- yes...when i get up in the morning n m still rubin my eyes...i kum n switch it on...and then switch it off when go to sleep....when i was happy i played games n kept on facebookin till midnight...when i was pissed i banged the kys on my black keyboard..when i was upset i played the saddest of songs on Jet Audio...i have met some great frnz all thru this device...n i probably kud have choked without u .....will mis u dude..n trust me..no matter how slow u r....will love u always.. :)

7)Tiny -- OH eff....m so clueless about the exact reasons why m gonna miss u....well..dunno bout u...but when I will b off there...n when i sign in gtalk n i wont find /\R|_||\|/\\//\ HAIL INSTRU !!!!!! with that red busy sign on the left side and a song track on as the status message....i will sigh...sigh and say...wish u were online ass... :(....and then when its tym i need to go to bed..and check my cellfone for missed calls and messages and when i will b wantin to sms n bug u..and the sudden realisaation taht will happen to me that ..shitt its not nyt for him...i'll jus flip off my fn and buzz off to sleep wishin i kud sms u sayin "wacchya doin ?" nd a reply in less than 15 secs... "nm. u ?" :(.....nd then when i will b goin to pizza huts thr..i'll b lyk...oh m eatin all on myself...no one to treat... :(....dunno dude...bt i guess i need to thank u...thank u for many things...u have been a super-friend.. will miss ya...n u know that...

8)Chigy --My beeeeest brothr n my constant support....the bhoot-petni bro-sis duo rocks ....n dnt worry...emails r always thr....do i need to say anythin else... ??? will miss ya brothr... :(

Well...thaz it for now...i have more to add on to the list.....will do it in the next blog....here for the ones i will b rememberin evry othr second...:(

How To Break Up With A Man..

• Keep it simple. The more he understands about the break up the easier it'll be for the both of you.
• Keep it short. The faster you get it over with the better and the longer you are together the worse.
• Leave no "maybes." Don't make him think there's a possibility of getting back together or else he may never leave you alone and just get even more the jealous when you meet someone new. (u knw how guys r , ryt ?)
• Tell him in person. If possible, tell him in person. It'll be easier on the both of you. However, if there is abuse in the relationship, seek a friend to tell him for you or write an email.
• Stay calm. If you are calm, he will be calm.(unlike their normal nature.)

Top 10 Break Up Lines..

1. I guess We need to talk.
2. It's not your fault. It's me.
3. I know i shoudnt have but...I've lied...
4. Do you remember when I’ve said everything is alright?
5. You are like a sister/brother to me.
6. I think we are really better off as friends...wt say ?
7. I don't love you any more.
8. Do you really want to know why I go out to dinner with my assistant?
9. Have you always been so boring?
10. Give me back my keys.....

Its a lot funy how life treats me.....its strange how the very things which we want to hold on to forever drift away the fastest...it kinda hurts when the one whom u want to be with , the one whom u want to come closer to n the one whom u feel can help u see the world in ur favourite shades , starts takin for granted...it pins to see him deaf to every word of ur love and every cry that u scream out to him...its strange when u want him to realise how much u actually want him and he just wants u to believe that u were immature and in an illusion...it breaks inside when u realise inspite of ur firmest grip his hand smoothly glides away from urs....and u look at ur lone hand n cry out his name....bt he doesnt hear it.....it kinda tears apart in there, when u want him to be by ur side when u wnt to cry..bt he hardly realises that he was the reason y u were shedin all those tears....u want to hug him , hold his hand and break down on his shoulder.but when u try to come closer u realise there is this invisible wall around him...that HE has built....just to prevent u...u want to shout out to him but his ears happen to get immuned to ur scream n he moves off without a care.....u go crazy , cry, shout , scream , yell, go numb , stay silent , weeping and yelling just to make hime understand that u LOVE HIM......bt he just turns his back to make u realise that u are just an aquintance of a month...and there goes ur dreams in that rubbish bin wher u once wanted to throw off all ur tears seeing him....

Wanna stay back..

my IELTS results r out and i have scored well...
really really well.....and guess what mom, dad, every one is happy...everyone except ME..not that i dint want to fare well or something...its jus that i dnt wanna go ....go from ths palce whos made me what i m ....
no m no superstar , not a powerwoman or something....bt its jus meee....n i love it ths way..i dnt wanna get disciplined....i dnt wanna drift apart from those frnz...
i knw sydney is like grt...bt i love it here ....i jus wanna stay...i really do

nt yet an adult n cravin to be one...that kud b my status at the moment...
bt apart from that...these days...things just dnt seem to b fallin in the rite place...hv tried a lot to place the missing piece in the jigsaw puzzle....bt i just dnt find it..n even when i'v found it...smone comes places it b4 me.....
naaah...
m jus nt talkin bout my severly disastrous relationships...
m talkin bout me... the entire me...n everything happenin around this "me"..its like...i know wt i wnt frm life...n i even wt i'v gotta do in order to achieve that piece of thing.....bt when its tym to do...i feel ....nt lazy...bt smthn that i.....i jus dnt do it...
i mean ....my ISC for example....i ruined it ...i messed it....messy enuf nt to gt things bk in track...n whom do i blame....
obviously MEEEE
who else do u expect???
my mom???
who stayed up evry nite when i studied just for 15 days b4 those exmz....n gt me coffee..n every othr order i placed..inspite of goin thru an operation a month ago...
or my dad???
who runs around doin his duties n rushin to the workplace inspite of his broken hipjoint.....i knw it hurts , i knw it pains...i can feel that when i se him walkin down the streets...he almost limps...n he says.."...m just doin it coz its a daughter...had it been a son ...i wud hv submitted my VRS long back..."
or shud i just blame.....
my frnz(the real ones)???
who tried to make me undrstand almost everyday...."priya...do it....study a li'l bit n u can do it".....
or maybeeee
my teachers...
who corrected me at almost every step....
BUT , then to me breakin rules were cool, n fashionable n soo very priya-like...n so i did it...
bt today when i turn back n see my life.....in these 17 yrs...
i guess..i kud hv done a li'l better..i kud hv hurt ppl a li'l less...n mk my mom cry n suffer fr me a li'l less...or maybe i kud hv been a bit mr gentle to her...no m nt arrogant....bt m jus rude...i mean nt that i wanna be rude..its jus that when i gt angry...i jus bloww it of....n i just say almost anything that hits my tongue...
so today...i just wanna say sorry...to all u guys...

SSOORRYYYY !!!!!!

coz i kudnt be the perfect one u wntd me to be...
sorry ma, for bluffin u at tyms....when i used to say m studyin..while i was nt,.....bt i guess u undrstnd it all..
sorry dad...
for nt bein the"perfecto indian daughter"....i mean m really sorry...(bt i cnt help it..)
n sorry to my frnz.....
for lettin u down....
sorry to my teachers...
coz i kudnt gt things ryt...
n sorry u GOD....
for nt usin ur given facilities rt...

-----with love n appologies-----
--priya--

P.S:-well there r a lot more ppl...whom i need to say sorry....bt these were jus the most significant ones..